2026 week 13, new work new life
monday, 20260323 to sunday, 20260329
ridgewood, ny
fourth weeknotes we keep on going. really didn't want to sit down and write this before leaving for work but i'm going to give it minimum effort and see what spins out.
a lot of working this week. first week on this new job. feeling out what it means to work at a startup. it is exciting and pretty fun. trying to hold the anxiety of not prioritizing correctly and blocking my groupmates somehow. but getting good at that will only come with time. so far a lot a lot of learning. of learning the software stack, getting setup on all the softwares. meeting with everyone and trying to learn exactly what everyone does so i can make a mental map of expertise.
its really good. its a lot. work/life culture seems pretty good. like nobody is working late for the hell of it. but seems like everyone is willing to work late when it is required. which i think is how i feel about the whole thing. finding the balance will be hard for me. i will need to keep in touch with myself about it. at least right now its starting to get nice outside. so its easier for me to be like ok i'm leaving at 4 to go be outside. i need a damn reason for everything huh.
anyway skating a lot. the chelsea pier pool is on my way home which is awesome. best pool in nyc. and the vibes at the park are like my hometown park. old heads standing around listening to music and cruising the bowl. groms getting skate lessons from former pros. just a nice comfortable place for me.
hurt my ankle on wednesday. the price of skating transition. but now i'm going to wear kneepads. and no smoking pot and skating transition. it just puts my balance all kinds of off.
and the weekend was good. got time with my partner. saw project hail mary which i think is the genre of engineer movie that is targetted straight at my retarded ass. if you liked the martian you'll like hail mary. the rock guy was cute. but i also think he was kind of developed to be cute which annoys me.
zen center on sunday was nice. great dharma talk by a senior student who works as a chaplain in a hospital. my favorite talks always like hit me over the head with a hammer and place perspective in my lap. and this was one of those. all my feelings of life slipping through my fingers if i'm not staring at it at every moment kind of fell away. being reminded that we will all grow old, get sick, and die is an important one. three of the somethings.. the messengers bring the message. so i guess they are the messages. and all we can do between now and then is our best effort. and that is what i am doing.
i've been thinking about creating a new major goal to guide me. now that i'm in this job i can have a bit of a different angle on things. more money. anyway i was thinking if i make a good plan and execute i could reach a goal of owning like a sailboat next season. like a big one. to do it sustainably i think i'd need to release a lot. like really cut back on the amount of hobbies and gear and crap i'm keeping around. i would need to lock in. and prioritize. which has a kind of appeal. but i also love all my hobbies. so maybe next season is not the right angle to take.
but man the idea of simplifying and purging is an awesome one. to really pare back to just the essentials. think about what is most important to me. i already try and avoid diving too deep into hobbies. we only have so much brain space and time. but i don't know what that would look like. maybe it means 1 skateboard 1 bike. like what do i need to let go of and what do i not? like could i make a minimal tattoo setup? idk. maybe i need to do that anyway and not get a big sailboat. just get focus on my little sailboat. new projects are too alluring.
life goes on. on to work. the majority of my life. and now at least it's scratching my brain.
