2026 week 12, sitting on top of the ball and saying goodbye
monday, 20260316 to sunday, 20260322
ridgewood, ny
third weeknotes !! number 3. this time monday morning.
i want to keep it a bit higher level and shorter. ultimately it does not matter what i did day to day. and i don't like clinging to keeping that record or straining to remember the actuality of what hapened.
this was my last week at my old job with the coffee company. it was a nice 9 easy months. wake up. see what has to happen in the day. go in when i'm done at home. make deliveries or pick up green coffee or move beans around. split and do whatever else i wanted to do that day.
monday and tuesday i was training my replacements. i think they will do great.
otherwise it was pretty nice outside. i did a lot of skating which feels good. i had one day where i just felt shit click. i realized i had been straining to do my tricks harder than i needed to. and by relaxing a bit i could do them just as good but with less effort. but then i also had a couple sessions where things were just harder than normal. its always a bit of a gamble. sometimes i wonder if i executed my day perfectly- ate well, stretched, meditated, massaged my muscles- that what i seek to do would feel equally easy. like if i just execute my routines with mastery then i could skate awesomely. or do whatever awesomely.
but i think that's not real. like every day has baked in variance. even if i did everything perfectly i might have a tough day skating or cycling or whatevs. so i just accept the hard sessions. and i know with practice comes consistency.
wednesday was a messed up day. starting off with my amazon delivery being stolen- no sd card for my camera. then having a chill work day. going to the park to skate and finding the diy features were gone ;-;. then coming home and finding my bike seat stolen.. just ugh
all stuff that is not key. amazon will refund me. diy features get removed always. bike seat i can afford to replace. but damn what a day of being punched by the world. i ended up putting the microsd that i ordered for my phone into the camera. so i carried my camera again this week!!
thursday and friday were pretty chill too. all the accounts had crazy orders last week so it was mellow this week. saying bye to everyone was hard. to a few of my favorite accounts in particular. i hope i can go say hi to them in the future and run into people i know. i heard a lot of 'dont be a stranger!!' which is funny. a very southern saying to me.
wrapped up work on friday and entered the time outside of time when you are between two jobs. went and skated a bit, met tanner for beers at myrtle pub. my favorite bar in the world. $5 gansett draft + bogo happy hour + free hot dogs and popcorn. like what else could you ask for.
then saturday it was nice out. i went to sebago to check on my boat which i knew in my bones to be absolutely full of water and destroyed. but it turned out to be only like 1/3 full of water and not destroyed at all. emptied her out and then helped some folks with spring projects at the club. isis and i did a bit of a slapdash but hopefully robust repair on sunfish, rose's mast step. seems a bit of a design oversight to have the mast step just be a glassed in tube set into the hull. very hard to repair and definitely going to break in the lifetime of the boat.
anyway. tanner came and met me there and i got to show him around and introduce him to some folks. i was hoping we could go out for a row or something at least. it always feels good to push through the friction and get the boat on the water. but it was windy and the water temps are still in the upper 30s. so we decided just to bask in the sun from the land. then went home and took a nap. skated in the street a bit outside my house with my dirtbag speedball (pot smoke + coffee). before tanner brought over ingredients for dinner.
we made chicken enchiladas which i have never made before. super easy and fun. tanner is easy to cook with. reminded me of my dinner parties in gainesville. wade came by, and sem got home too. tate bailed / forgot which is a bummer. but it was a great dinner.
then sunday morning is always for the zen center. a regular and grounding practice for me. tanner was there too and we hung afterward. met up with my friend tj who is visiting from pittsburgh this weekend. a great and sunny day.
got some new pants and a t shirt from the thrift. visited lowlife for my first time as a civilian. love those fools. good tattoo mentors. and then came home and sem had ordered pizza and we watched the louis theroux manosphere doc which i thought was a pretty empathetic take on the scene. it makes me sad when people dismiss those who have hateful views. if you do not understand what made them this way you will not solve hate. and something made them this way.
and then its now. i'm about to go start a new job. and we'll see how it shakes out.